I’m full of fictions and fucking addictions

Red is my favorite color, red like your mother’s eyes after awhile of crying about how you don’t love her. She says “I know I don’t deserve supervised sight of her, but each day becomes a blur without my daughter.” Fall is my favorite season, like falling to reasoning why you crashed from on high. She says “Why is my life so uneven, and what have I done right but given you your life if after I led you on into that bar room?” “Yes” is my favorite answer. I took a dancer home, she felt so alone. We stayed up all night in the kitchen doing my dishes, on and on until the dawn. She said “I know it’s easy to have me, but I have seen some things that I can’t even tell to my family pictures,” and “I’m full of fictions and fucking addictions” and “I miss my mother.” She’ll never know I could never forget her. If I could write her a letter, I’d try with every line to say “She still remembers your touch. And I know that it’s not much, but you still haven’t lost her.”

"Red" - Okkervil River

c'mon c'mon

On another day c'mon c'mon
With these ropes I tied can we do no wrong
Now we grieve cause now is gone
Things were good when we were young

With my teeth locked down I can see the blood
Of a thousand men who have come and gone
Now we grieve cause now is gone
Things were good when we were young

Is it safe to say? (c'mon c'mon)
Was it right to leave? (c'mon c'mon)
Will I ever learn? (c'mon c'mon)
(c'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon)

As I make my way c'mon c'mon
These better nights that seem too long
Now we grieve cause now is gone
Things were good when we were young

With my teeth locked down I can see the blood
Of a thousand men who have come and gone
Now we grieve cause now is gone
Things were good when we were young

Is it safe to say? (c'mon c'mon)
Was it right to leave? (c'mon c'mon)
Will I never learn? (c'mon c'mon)
(c'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon)

Is it safe to say? (c'mon c'mon)
Was it right to leave? (c'mon c'mon)
Will I never learn? (c'mon c'mon)
(c'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon)

And no this day these deepened wounds don't heal so fast
Can't hear me croon of a million lies that speak no truth
Of a time gone by that now is through

- The Von Bondies

sol


luna

bright sol dark sky

thump

woosh

"When there's nothing left to burn, you must set yourself on fire."

August

1) "History Of Lovers" by Iron And Wine / Calexico
2) "The Bad Actress" by Josh Ritter
3) "Give Back The Key To My Heart" by Uncle Tupelo
4) "She's Too Far Gone" by Arthur Godfrey
5) "My Moon My Man" by Feist
6) "Long Goodnight" by Scott Miller and The Commonwealth
7) "I Found A Reason" by Cat Power
8) "Burn" by Ray LaMontagne
9) "Factory Girl" by Whiskeytown
10) "Wall of Death" by Richard and Linda Thompson
11) "Last Dance" by Sarah McLachlan
12) "I'll Fly Away" by The Dirty Dozen Brass Band
13) "Wish You Were Here" by Pink Floyd
14) "Big Empty" by Stone Temple Pilots
15) "The Dresses Song" by Lisa Germano
16) "Cold Cold Water" by Mirah

burn

Burn - Ray LaMontagne

Oh mama don't walk away
I'm a goddamn sore loser
I ain't too proud to stay
But I'm still thinking 'bout you
And I'm so lonesome without you
And I can't get you out of my mind
Oh mama don't leave me alone
with my soul sat down so tight it's like a stone cold tomb
Ain't it clear when I'm near you
I'm just dying to hear you
Calling my name one more time
Oh so don't pay no mind
To my watering eyes
Must be something in the air
That I'm breathing
Yes'n I try to ignore
All this blood on the floor
It's just this heart on my sleeve that's a bleeding
Oh mama don't walk away
You leave me here bereaving from the words so hard and plain
Saying the love that we had
was just selfish and sad
To see you now with him
is just making me mad
Oh so kiss him again
just to prove to me that you can
and I will stand here
and burn in my skin
Yes I will stand here
and burn in my skin

falling into the sun

Sunshine

'Sunshine' on Flickr

"Long Goodnight" - Scott Miller

This is a long good night
This is a long good night
From a whole universe lit by one kitchen light
And its tombstone cold
you know a tombstone cold
that’s the kind you lay dying for someone to hold
This is a mule train world
This is a mule train world
pulling you forward as soon as your born
This is a train ride start
This is a train ride start
You know where its ending before you depart
To the only place
To the only place
I can feel her eyelashes and her breath on my face
This is a long good night
This is a long good night
to a whole universe lit by one kitchen light

burned

"Don't do anything by half. If you love someone, love them with
all your soul. When you go to work, work your ass off. When you hate someone, hate them until it hurts."
- Henry Rollins

"Firefly" - American Music Club

C'mon beautiful we'll go sit on the front lawn
We'll watch the fireflies as the sun goes down
They don't live too long, just a flash and then they're gone
We'll laugh at them and watch the sun go down

You're so pretty baby
You're the prettiest thing I know
You're so pretty baby
Where did you go?

Tell my why you don't sleep anymore
Tell me what you sit up all night waiting for

Are you waiting for loneliness to paralyze
Are you waiting for Sister Midnight to unleash the tide

You're so pretty baby
You're the prettiest thing I know
You're so pretty baby
Where did you go?

Finish the prayer that started as a kiss
The overwhelming dream of happiness
I'll give you all of my good luck
For the overwhelming dream that's killing us

You're so pretty baby
You're the prettiest thing I know
You're so pretty baby
Where did you go?

C'mon we'll go sit on the front lawn
I'll hold you in my arms and we're gone
Here and gone, firefly

"Always See Your Face" - Arthur Lee / Love

Won't somebody please, Help me with my miseries
Won't somebody see, yeah what this world has done to me

And I know, I know
and I say oh, I say
that no matter where I go no
I will always see your face

Won't somebody please, Help me with my memory
Can somebody see, yeah what this world has done to me

And I know, I know
and I say oh, I say
that no matter where you go no
you will always see my face

and no matter where you go no
you will always see my face
and no matter where you go no
you will always see my face
and no matter where I go no
I will always see your face
Girl, I'm looking I can see your face
Yeah, look and you can see my face
Yeah, I'm looking at you looking at me

"So That I Don't Miss You" - Nadine

Drifting along, disconnection
my mind's a wheel spinning
staring right through my own reflection
my mind's a wheel spinning

I'm gonna sleep with the radio on...
I'm gonna sleep with the radio on...
I'm gonna sleep with the radio on tonight
So that I don't miss you

Now I remember being a stranger
my mind's a wheel spinning
so behind all the changes
my mind's a wheel spinning

I'm gonna sleep with the radio on...
I'm gonna sleep with the radio on...
I'm gonna sleep with the radio on tonight
So that I don't miss you

I read a book, I was just turning pages
my mind's a wheel spinning
no more nights of love
or blind rages
my mind's a wheel spinning

I'm gonna sleep with the radio on...
I'm gonna sleep with the radio on...
I'm gonna sleep with the radio on tonight
So that I don't miss you

"She's Too Far Gone" - Arthur Godfrey


She used to dream about him
Now she's on her own
She used to read between the lines
Now she's too far gone
She used to wear her hair up for him
She knew he liked it that way
Treat him like a captain
Hoped he'd ask her to stay

All she wanted was a love letter
All she wanted was a love song
A red rose on Tuesday for no reason
Now she's too far gone

Shed get her body ready for him
But he never look her in the eye
Give her what she wanted
A shoulder to cry on

All she wanted was a love letter
All she wanted was a love song
A red rose on Tuesday for no reason
Now she's too far gone

All she wanted was a love letter
All she wanted was a love song
A red rose on Tuesday for no reason
Now she's too far gone

burn out

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